I was having a hard time feeling like I deserved a job, but of any job ever, I thought this might be the one. I went out to lunch with two of their recruiters and a friend of mine who works there on Friday and things went really well. The job seems perfect for what I want to do and since it relates to similar things that I do at my current job, I figured I would have stuff to talk about as far as why I could do it.

Then a popular tech blog posted about the job today. A national blog. With thousands of visitors. Seeing that post, my heart sank. This job is huge. This job is important, and lots of people are taking notice of it. The company’s reputation, in some ways, will be staked on the success of the person who takes this job. How can I do that? How can I deserve that?

It’s really hard to feel good about myself, and if I can’t do that, I don’t know how I’ll ever feel anything more than that I lucked into my job, that I snuck in unnoticed somehow. I really hate feeling like that.